broadcasting all over the cyberworld..

2007-08-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

work starts on monday.. new school, new trimester starts next monday..

out with Mon, in with Matt.. :D

2007-03-03T16:24:00.000+08:00

Your Call
Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

2007-02-28T12:21:00.000+08:00

wala pa daw akong napapatunayan sa kanya..

ako nga ang highest sa dalawang classes niya.. heck, highest ako in most of my classes.. wala pa ba akong napatunayan jan?

ewan ko ba kung anong pinagsasabi niya.. leche..

2007-02-03T02:58:00.000+08:00

naiintindihan ko na kung bakit sila nagka-cut class..
naiintindihan ko na kung bakit sila naninigarilyo..
naiintindihan ko na kung bakit sila nagpapakalasing..

2007-01-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

masakit para sa akin nang nanghihimutok sa galit niyang sabihin sa aking bawasan ko daw ang aking paglalakwatsa at mag-aral naman daw ako..

masakit, kasi inakusahan niya akong pala-gala, pero halos sa dorm at sa center niyo lang ako matatagpuan..

masakit, kasi di niya alam kung gaano kalaking oras ang linalaan ko sa pag-aaral..

masakit, kasi ang pakiramdam ko, binigo ko ang mga taong mataas ang tingin at humahanga sa akin..

masakit, kasi para bang ipinamukha niya sa akin na iwinawaldas ko lang ang kanilang pinaghirapang pera..

at higit sa lahat, masakit para sa akin na sa kanyang mga labi pa mismo maggaling na ako palang daw ang nakapag-paiyak sa kanya ng ganoon..

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napakahirap makipagtalo sa nanay ko..

magagalit siya sa iyo nang dahil sa isang bagay, magrarason ka, at kapag wala na siyang laban ay walang kasing dali niyang mahahanapan ng bagong ikagagalit niya ang rason na ibinigay mo..

kaya kahit ang pagiging makakalimutin ko ang pangunahing dahilan niya upang magalit, di nakapagtatakang nauwi nanaman ang isang pagtatalo sa kanyang pagluha, at sa mga katagang "ikaw daw ang nakapag-paiyak sa akin ng ganito.."

ngayon, halu-halo ang emosyong nararamdaman ko.. may parte na alam kong mayroon akong nagawang mga pagkakamali at pinagsisisihan ko ng lubusan ang mga ito.. may parte na naaawa ako sa kanya kasi hindi ko namang ninais na mauwi ang lahat sa kanyang pagdra-drama.. pero ang pinakanangingibabaw sakin ngayon ay ang galit, dahil ang ipinalabas niya sa akin na para bang ibinaliwala ko ang kanilang pagsisikap..

GALIT, kasi ang dating sa akin, wala na lang akong ginawang tama..

2007-01-01T03:17:00.000+08:00

i feel like my brain has been emptied of the little wit it had..

writing's been tougher than usual.. usually takes me a long time to come up with a single sentence.. plus, my brain seems to have lost its thesaurus.. geez, i can't even compose a decent blog entry to save my life..

not only that, it's like everything i do recently are only for temporary highs.. i try to enhance my mental being, and yet nothing sinks in.. it's like, in one ear, pretend processing, out the other.. ugh, who am i kidding?

i need help.. fast..

what a way to start the year.. sheesh..

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anyway, my seven resolutions for '07 are (1) practice better time management, (2) practice better money management, (3) more focus on studies, (4) get a [part-time] job, (5) be tougher in facing life, (6) lose more weight, & (7) start going to the gym..

huy..

2006-12-31T16:43:00.000+08:00

it's the year i lost a luh-hot of weight.. tried using slimming pills, and yet nothing happened.. turns out i just need to keep an eye on what i eat.. last summer i weighed at least 180 lbs., and just before the christmas break i clocked in at 145 lbs.. from an XXL to an L.. and no, i've got no plans of stopping.. the diet's still on 'til my love handles and man-boobs disappear..

it's the year i shifted courses.. i decided to stop kidding myself, face the fact that i'm really not built for Computer Engineering, and shift to Computer Science.. and since Mapúa's not the best place to take up CS, i decided to change institutions.. not to mention, it's the year i transferred schools, to Informatics Computer Institute in Sampaloc.. i could not be any happier with my studies..

it's the year i made an enemy.. i normally don't have enemies [at least enemies i know of].. pero 2006 is the year one friend turned into one of the filthiest enemies i've ever had.. so, just remember that whenever i say "did a Rene", i mean talked behind my back, formed alliances with other unpleasant people, and blew things way out of proportion.. just a heads up.. *wink* on a much lighter note, it's the year i made tons of new friends.. new school and new dorm helped much..

most importantly, it's the year i matured a lot.. i learned to handle my time and finances appropriately.. i learned to be careful of what i say.. i learned to look out for myself and for the people around me..

2006-12-15T16:44:00.000+08:00

just got my class cards today, and damn, am i pissed..

i should be happy pa nga e, kasi for the first time in my life, i finally got a 1.0.. but noooo.. i'm more pissed off by the fact na i only got a 2.0 in Math.. yeah, some of you might say na i'm overreacting.. pwede lang, pero nakaka-asar talaga..

hay naku.. basta.. hirap nang magsalita.. basta, bitter ako! hmph!

2006-12-14T20:53:00.000+08:00

i can't help but feel the show's about to face its last season.. hope this feeling's just for now..

a reformat, maybe? perhaps under a new name? hmmm.. we'll see..

2006-12-13T16:59:00.000+08:00

last night was fun, fun, FUN!

dumaan lang ako sa madrigal para kunin yung laundry ko, sabay biglang nag-aya sina enzy, erica, ayene, and arvin na mag-mcdo, so buntot naman ako.. pagdating namin dun, saka ko lang nalaman na libre pala ni arvin food namin! late birthday treat daw niya.. yippee!

tapos, while eating, nalaman ko na lalabas pala daw sila.. initial plans nila is to go to Provi.. excited na ako nun, pero biglang nagbago, sa Star City nalang daw.. so, sumama naman ako! hehe..

pagdating namin dun, na-realize ko na i left my wallet sa dorm.. was about to borrow money na sana, only to find out treat din pala ni arvin ride-all-you-can namin! talk about timing!

so, excited naman na akong sumakay dun sa mga extreme rides nila.. kasi naman, all the previous instances na nasa SC kami, mga bata ang kasama ko, e alangan namang isabay ko sila sakin, diba?

so, diretso dapat kami sa Viking, kaso i found out that arvin has this phobia of moving mechanisms, like escalators and theme park rides.. nung una, akala ko naman joke, pero later na-realize ko na seryoso pala siya.. i wanted to try to help him, so plano ko, unti-untiin namin yung mga rides.. yung mga medyo mellow muna, tapos unti-unti kaming magpro-progress into more thrilling rides.. so, nag-caterpillar muna kami, tapos blizzard, tapos dun sa magic carpet.. kitang-kita na super-tense siya during the ride.. dahil diyan, saludo ako kay arvin, isang taong may tapang at lakas upang harapin ang kanyang takot..

so, nung nagsarado na ang star city, at pagkatapos mag-food trip, nag-biking kami! masaya for the most part, kasi naman, aside from the games namin, it's been a long, loooooooong time narin since i last rode a bike.. so, medyo exhilirating din ang experience..

tapos, after an hour or so, diretso kami sa baywalk.. linakad lang ha.. lakas ng trip, no?

after mag-camwhore-an kasama ang mga dinos, kailangan na naming umuwi.. kasi naman, there were suspicious men following us e.. lakas ng loob, no? dami na nga namin, like, 14, sabay kami pa ang ta-target-in.. anyway, to be on the safe side, umuwi na rin lang kami.. konting food trip courtesy of 7-11, tapos umuwi na rin lang kami..

haaay.. it's times like this that i miss soooooo much.. fun to the max!

2006-12-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the center's christmas-cum-acquaintance party.. masaya naman.. pati napilitan akong sumali sa isang parlor game, 'Polo-Kissing Contest' name niya.. pero okay lang.. walang KJ! hehe..

pati nagulat ako kasi di ko in-expect na makakakuha ako ng award.. 'Most Promising Student for New Batch' daw kuno.. but why?

uy, pero partida, antagal ko nang inde nakatanggap ng award.. weird nga lang talaga kasi usually you get an award for something good that you did.. pero sakin, impression lang ata talaga ang naging basis nila.. anyway, thankful narin ako na may award ako.. hehe..

at nag-overnight kami kina sandy! mejo close na rin kami ng mga second years.. bonding session, walang tulugan!

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sh_t, i still can't get over the fact that Yvan didn't make it to the top 6..

kahit na he reminds me of some irritating songer na gifted din sa chin department, you can't deny the fact that he's one of the best talents in PDA.. for that, he undoubtedly deserves the slot in the top 6.. no, not ronnie nor chad.. it's yvan who deserves to join the PDA world tour..

well, ang consolation nalang sakin, wala na si rosita..

2006-12-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

ayos lang yung finals namin sa CS112 and CS113 kanina.. at, kumusta naman, ngayon lang ako nakarinig ng finals na open notes, open books, at lahat lahat na! plus, since mabait ang proctor namin, at naaawa naman ako sa mga classmates ko, kaya sinabi ko na yung sagot sa ibang questions.. di kasi na-discuss, e feeling namin na hindi si sir ang magche-check ng papers namin, kaya ayun.. konting tulong man lang.. pang-boost lang ng grades.. pero sana lang hindi mali pag-solve ko.. hehe.. ^__^

after that, i met up with decci today sa SM San Lazaro.. sinamahan ko siyang bumili ng secret nalang kung ano yun.. sana lang may effect sa kanya.. at magulat nalang kayo the next time na makita niyo siya in person.. *wink wink*

tapos i bought something for the Kris Kringle na rin pala for tomorrow's Informatics christmas party.. good luck nalang ang makakabunot sa regalo ko.. hehe..

after that, nag-aya ako to eat at Burger King.. miss ko na 'to, sobra! naman kasi, kung kelan nag-aaral na ako sa Dapitan, saka pa sila nagsarado.. grrr..

almost lost my phone pala! nagtaka kasi ako kay decci kung bakit lagi niyang binubulsa phone niya, tapos la pang isang minuto bubunutin nanaman kasi may nag-text.. dahilan niya, baka daw maiwan niya sa table.. sabi ko sa kanya, wag siyang mag-alala, ire-remind ko siya.. tapos nung umalis na kami, tinanong ko siya, sabi niya dala niya.. tapos ako naman nagkapa ng phone.. lintik, ako pa nakaiwan sa tray! engots.. hehe..

tapos, the FX i rode on the way home got caught by this police car.. dunno kung ano yung offense, pero it must have been some very grave offense, kasi naman galit na galit si mamang driver.. hayun, after ibulsa nung wallet niya, kung mag-drive kala mo kung sa kanya yung kalsada.. sa sobrang abrupt pa ng speed bursts and brakes niya, pakiramdam ko, nakasakay ako ng space shuttle..

sayang, may cute pa naman ako na kasabay.. siyempre, act cool naman ako para di dyahe.. hehe.. ^__^

2006-12-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

took two final exams yesterday.. ST109A [Word, Excel & Powerpoint] was easy.. CS111 [Computers and Information Processing] was hard as hell! good think i browsed the book a bit the night before.. kung hindi, surely bagsak ako..

bukas naman yung for CS112 [Program Design] and CS113 [Mathematics for Computing].. haay naku.. self study nanaman.. todo review dapat ako para sa dalawang yan..

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grabe.. dami kong christmas parties na pupuntahan.. sa Madrigal, sa school, sa Informatics, to name a few.. gastos nanaman! at good luck naman sa diet ko! hehe..

2006-12-05T01:23:00.000+08:00

pag naririnig ko ang pambi at yummy, naiiyak ako..

siguro kasi nami-miss ko na ang tropa.. nawala lang ako sa mapua, bigla na lang daming friends ko na ang members ng pambi.. dahil sa napalayo ako, di tuloy ako naka-'sali' sa bagong pamilya..

ewan ko ba.. tulad nalang nung EEC night.. ramdam ko na parang na-disconnect ako sa kanila.. yun bang biglang di ako makahabol sa samahan, tawanan, lokohan nila.. feelingero lang talaga siguro ako, pero pakiramdam ko walang naka-miss sa akin..

it's as if i'm not a loss.. it's as if i didn't exist..

tangina, naluluha na ako.. *sob*

2006-11-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

kumusta naman ang Mapua Idol? hindi naka-pasok si Ayra sa top 6, e sobrang galing ng performance niya! and don't even get me started with the guy who won.. pucha, wala sa kalingkingan ng ibang finalists sa top 6 ang singing niya.. dinaan lang sa pagsayaw! kumusta naman iyon? kelan pa naging Dance Idol ang Mapua Idol?

at least babala na yan sa contenders ng next year's Mapua Idol.. idaan nalang sa pagsayaw..

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my blog just reached its 4000-visitor mark.. wala lang.. ^__^

2006-11-06T15:50:00.000+08:00

uhm, word of caution lang.. this is an anything goes post.. aun lan po.. :D

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for starters, hindi na ako mapuan.. i now study at informatics, sa center nila dito sa dapitan, sa likod ng UST.. daming reasons why, like yung pabago-bagong isip ni mama, yung pagkaka-dismaya ko sa education sa mapua, at ang pagtupad ko sa matagal ko nang binabalak na pag-shift sa computer science..

well, masaya naman dito..

konti lang ang students per class, so mas tutok ang prof sa inyo..
wala nang minor subjects, lahat relevant sa computer science..
i can finish an AD in 2 years.. tapos pwede pang ma-reduce yun to 1.5 years lang, kung tutuusin..
masaya pa subjects kasi lahat talaga hilig ko, at di na ako duduguin sa kakaintindi ng concepts sa electronics at circuits..
close ang mga tao dito, as in very approachable and friendly [di tulad nung bookstore lady sa mapua]..
free internet!

downsides naman:

zero credit sa majors.. that means uulitin ko nanaman ang C++, logic, discrete, at data structures..
lumilindol pa dito maya't-maya.. as in may dadaan na bus o truck sa labas, mararamdaman mo na ang pagyanig.. well, sa side lang naman na malapit sa street, pati malapit na akong ma-immune..
medyo hindi ko rin trip ang classmates ko.. sinasakyan ko lang sila sa mga trip nila..
medyo bored ako sa classes ngayon kasi ilang beses ko nang napagdaanan iyon, kumbaga purgang-purga na ako..
since may edge ako versus the other students, ako yung palaging pinagtatanungan nila.. takte, hindi naman ata nila hilig ang CS, e! napipilitan lang ata..
eto pa: isa lang ang prof namin sa lahat ng subjects! kumusta naman iyon! i mean, dati, ayos lang kay mam santoyo kasi kahit everyday ko siyang nakikita, at least for 1.5 hours lang, di pa kami medyo magkakasawaan niyan.. pero ngayon, kumusta naman? for at least 6 hours each day siya ang tititigan namin..

good luck nalang sakin..

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binisita pala namin si guakong nung undas.. wala lang.. dahil dun, nakita ko ulit yung mga fave cousins ko!

sakay naman ako ng LRT, tapos bumaba ng r. papa station.. at since antagal ko nang inde bumisita sa puntod ni lolo, at wala si mama para maging guide ko sa maze ng mga chinese streets and alleys, sinubukan ko nalang ang instincts ko para makarating sa puntod ni guakong.. at hindi ako nawala! wehehehe..

medyo masaya rin kahit konti lang kami dun kasi, aside from the presence of my fave cuzes, napaka-nostalgic nung mga ginawa namin nun.. like, yung pag-paste nung banderitas around the tombs, yung lighting nung dragon candles, yung lighting ng incence tapos pray kami kay lolo, tapos yung pag-burn ng 'money' para ipadala sa heaven.. wow, nakaka-miss yun, a!

sayang nga lang, konti lang kami nun.. :(

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sobrang sira na ang body clock ko.. dati kasi, kung kailan ko lang feel matulog, saka lang ako matutulog.. ganun din sa pagkain, paglalaro sa laptop, at panonood ng movies..

ngayon, di parin ako sanay na may 8am class everyday.. pano na to?

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may bago nanaman pala akong kamukha..

may dental clinic kasi na ka-floor ng informatics.. ngayon, yung chinese na dentista dun, kamukha ko daw..

ewan ko lang, kasi naman i have yet to meet him palang..

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oist, naghahanap kami ni mico ng dorm/apartment/room for rent along dapitan.. sino jan ang makakatulong?

2006-10-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

this has got to be the birthday with the fewest greetings.. not to mention virtually noone greeting me personally..

i don't think i deserve to be greeted, anyway.. i also forget my friends' birthdays too, you know.. even those very close to me..

anyway, cheers to a gloomy 19th year of existence! *grins*

inde naman siya big deal.. ewan ko ba kung bakit nag-sink-in..
basta bigla nalang akong na-depress.. nalulungkot.. naiiyak..
siguro nga kasi konti lang naka-alala..
hay, ewan ko ba..

2006-10-24T19:27:00.000+08:00

Eow poh,watcha doin

Eow poh,watcha doin

Hus ds?

Katrina santos,u?

san mu p0 nkuha nmbr q?

Po

pkisg0t p0 tn0ng q..kc u jst startd txtng me e..san mu nkuha nmbr q?

D ko po alam,by d way im katrina santos,u

0k katrina,hirs wut ur g0nna d0..ur g0nna st0p txtng me na,kc i d0nt aprici8 rand0m pp0l bugging me,k?s0 jst STOP..

Ahm name u then,and fr?

did u jst hear me 0ut?cuz f u dd, den w0w..ur brain's g0t d pr0cesng p0wr 0f an imbecile..

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if there's one thing i hate, it's people who don't know when to quit..

i mean, i already told this katrina character to stop texting me, tapos tuloy lang siya sa pagpasa sakin ng mga quotes at paulit ulit na tinatanong ako kung ano pangalan ko..

what irritated me the most was that my sleep was interrupted when my phone beeped.. and, yeah, because of her message..

and i would have said her brain has the processing power of a blender, but i figured she's more capable than that since she was able to use a cellphone..

early warning lang sa mga kumukuha ng numbers ko: pag di ko kayo kilala, don't even attempt to strike up a conversation with me thru sms.. believe me, you'd never want to see that ugly side of me..

teka, how sure am i na babae nga ito? geeez..

ayan, flood this number with rants, people.. please..

+639173428740

2006-10-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

sabi ni karolle, i look like Stephen Chow.. sabi naman nung guy dun sa Informatics, kamukha ko daw si Joseph Yeo..

seryoso lang, hindi ko makita ang resemblance.. anlayo kaya.. sooooobra..

dapat ba akong ma-flatter? teka nga lang.. dapat nga ba akong maniwala? hehe..

anyway.. *rolls eyes*

2006-10-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

and my attempts to enter the work industry are postponed yet again.. tsk..

2006-10-15T15:21:00.000+08:00

ngayon at break na ng mga semestral schools, napakatahimik sa aming corridor.. para bang ghost town..

kitams, kami lang ang may bukas na ilaw..

2006-10-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

i will miss you, Vizcaya.. it was fun while it lasted..

2006-10-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

just last april, i clocked in at a whopping 180 lbs..

when we went to our tito's house over the weekend, i noticed a weighing scale and checked.. i weighed 150 lbs..ha!

that's 30 lbs in 6 months! my diet worked! bwahahaha!

2006-10-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

I hate ndustrial fans. D cla appealing tingnan. Gus2 k un mku2lay. Joke! ...M kinda hapi sa mga nki2lala ko lately. Sana ...Sana lang ...:)

haha!i like ur sense f hum0r..0ne f ur key pts,i presume?teka, ksma b aq dun s mga kilala mung hapi k?..

Hmmm, lemme think. :-P ...Bsta bsta ...Nkasama ko sa isang saturday nyt ...Kakilala cya ng isa kng frend, na pnakilala sakn nung weekend lang na un ...M hapi :)

Hmm,cn0 kya un?hehe..;)

ang sweet niya.. ^__^
sayang di niya ako type.. T__T

2006-09-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

day five in Vizcaya..

grabe, buti nalang pala pumayag akong magbakasyon dito sa probinsya.. i never expected Milenyo to be that brutal! and to think 12% lang ng Mega Manila ang may kuryente.. sana naman okay lahat ng mga kakilala ko jan sa southern luzon!

mafi-feel niyo nga pala ang absence ko online, kasi tomorrow morning i'll leave for Tuao, Cagayan.. fiesta kasi nila dun sa October 1, tapos dadaan din naman dito sa Vizcaya yung tito ko, so sasama narin nila ako..

gosh, barriong-barrio yung lugar na yun.. waaa, mami-miss ko ang internet, at ang sibilisasyon! wehehe..

2006-09-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

day two here in Nueva Vizcaya..

people here keep on stuffing food down my throat.. at talagang mga paborito ko pa ang binibigay.. shet, masisira diet ko nito.. lolobo nanaman ako pag nagpatuloy pa ito..

di lang yan, wala pa akong ginagawa dito kundi mag-internet, manood ng DVDs or TV, at matulog..

sana lang di ako magmukhang baboy pagbalik ko ng Manila..

2006-09-24T06:23:00.000+08:00

Friendster Horoscope for September 24, 2006
Scorpio (Oct 23 - Nov 21)

The Bottom Line
Excessive behavior in your social life might broadcast a misleading message.

In Detail
Any excessive behavior in your social life right now might broadcast a misleading message -- and people could get the wrong idea about who you really are. Watch your reputation, and try to act more conservatively with how you spend your money. Flashing your cash might make you feel powerful, but it's also an advertisement of sorts ... one that might be attracting the wrong type of attention. So beware. Stick to the folks you know the best, and avoid picking up new friends today.

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takte, ako yata ang pinariringgan ng horoscope, a.. saktong-sakto pa sa sitwasyon ko..

dapat ko bang paniwalaan 'to? it's too big a coincidence to ignore, e.. pati, kung totoo man ito, shet! pucha, sira na ang reputasyon ko!

2006-09-17T14:40:00.001+08:00

the past two weeks has been cruel to me.. not to mention the protist attack i had to endure..

moving on..

2006-08-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

let's just say i'm not a blooze and ciggie virgin anymore..

claire, tin, tagay na! hehe..

edit [30Aug06, 0825pm]: pics!

2006-08-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

Pluto no longer a planet

seryoso lang?

2006-08-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

i hate being in the limelight.. that's why i loathe all the attention i'm getting..

ugh..

2006-08-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

do the Shingo Mama no Oha Rock!

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the Circuits 2 exam went well, waaaaaay better than i had expected, given that i wasn't able to study for it, nor did i listen to Sir Maramba's lectures.. w000t!

problem is, wala nanamang tulugan tonight! i have, like, four lab reports to finish tonight, three of which are to be handwritten in engineering lettering.. that's why i went the nearby Starbucks branch and ordered myself a Venti Espresso Frappuccino with an extra shot..

caffeine overload na ito!

2006-08-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

they said the taping would be at 5pm.. dammit, we started at 7:30pm! i didn't expect it to end as late as 9:30pm, kaya nga i wasn't able to brush up on Circuits 2.. kasi naman, i have an exam tomorrow! cursed Filipino time..

while the other contestants were busy ogling at Jason, Franzen and Jody, i was starstruck when Maria Ressa passed by.. omg! i still can't believe i saw the great Maria Ressa!

when i saw Mitch, i wanted to talk to her and tell her how much i enjoy her blog.. but then again, she may get weirded out and mistake me as a stalker.. kasi naman, i thought, how would i react if somebody suddenly approached me and told me that s/he reads my blog? it wouldn't look cool..

i have a prophecy: Bayani Agbayani will win saturday's episode.. and he will remain the defending winner until the next celebrity episode..

*i hear someone shouting "curse you, false prophet!" from afar.. hehe..*

2006-08-08T19:25:00.000+08:00

kamusta naman? sa tagal kong inde nagbukas ng inbox, kanina ko lang nalaman yan..

2006-08-07T14:18:00.000+08:00

A person isn't who they are during the last conversation you had with them - they're who they've been throughout your whole relationship..

- Rainer Maria Rilke

yeah right.. sure, he does have a point.. pero that's not always the case.. *rolls eyes*

2006-08-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

since the new format started, i've only watched Pilipinas Game K N B? once.. kaya nga right now i'm watching episodes uploaded in YouTube..

sana lang i don't screw up this chance..

2006-08-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

Pilipinas, Game K N B? *grins*

2006-07-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

he's okay and all.. pero we just don't click.. you know?

i need a new roommate.. help!

2006-07-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

my hairstyle needs a change.. the glasses have got to go.. new wardrobe is necessary..

and i will accomplish this pag nag-work na ako.. after starbucks, convergys naman..

all these just to look better.. *sighs*

2006-07-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

i know i'm not photogenic.. pero pati ba naman video-genic?

kahit webcam-genic man lang sana.. tsk..

2006-07-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

the first quiz of the term, and i screw it up.. big time.. and to think madali na yung exam, a..

bakit ba kasi ginamit ko ang 2-pi-omega-f imbes na j-omega-f, at ang 1/(2-pi-omega-C) imbes na 1/(j-omega-C).. argh!

5 days of reviewing just went down the drain.. shitness.. *frowns*

2006-07-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

things i did in the past few days:

visited my bro in España, kasi ala na akong pera.. hehe.. ^__^
attempted to fix Tin's laptop's DVD-R problem, but to no avail..
bought a lot of chips in 7-11.. at nagda-diet na ako sa lagay na ito..
browsed though all my mp3 cds and saved my faves in my hard drive..
rewrote my notes in Circuits 2, Tronix 1, Numericals, and Mechanics..
compiled lots of playlists, including dance, trance, OPM, nostalgia, RnB, and Disney..
went to NSO to get a copy of my lolo's Death Cert, only to find out they're closed due to the typhoon..

sana bukas makapag-review na ako sa Circuits quiz namin.. ilang beses nang na-postpone e..

four fucking days with nothing matino to do brought a whole new definition to boredom.. *sigh*

2006-07-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

i miss watching TV.. *kunot noo*

2006-07-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

i can't believe i kept things to myself while you went on a rampage..

others ask why we're not talking.. i just tell them that you haven't exactly been that good a friend to me.. that you did things friends never do to each other.. that i wouldn't be the one to initiate peace talks.. that, in that rare occasion, i'm not going to swallow my pride just to ease the tension between us.. hell, i'm the one aggravated here, i shouldn't be the one to do something..

they, they don't even have to bother ask you.. you go on a dissing spree, broadcasting nasty things about me and making very grave accusations.. you formed alliances with people who didn't like me that much, and united to form a propaganda against me.. you defamed my name on everythin you get your grimy little hands on.. your friendster profile, your shoutout.. hell, even the logbook wasn't spared! you brought the argument to a whole new level..

yan ang specialty mo, e.. ang paninira ng tao.. you did it to me once before.. why should this case be any different?

i'm dissapointed at you.. i'm god-damned pissed at you.. i'm fuckin' furious at you!

you want the juice? i'll give you the juice!

pagkatapos mong magsumbong kay Raine, she texted me all these messages that shook me to the core.. what the hell did he tell her to get her this infuriated? i couldn't believe you managed to convince her that i didn't want to turn over the laptop to you.. it broke me down to tears.. it left me devastated..

but, didn't you ever wonder why she was keen on bringing us to speaking terms again? because i told her the truth, the things you refuse to believe.. and, guess what: she listened.. that's why she understood me, that's what sets you two apart..

eto pa: di ba dapat mag-e-LOA ako? tinanong ako ni Raine kung kelan daw ako magpapa-cancel ng enrolment.. ibibigay daw niya sa isang kakilala niya.. alam kong sa iyo niya ibibigay yun.. naintindihan ko.. ayos lang sa akin.. pero alam niyo kung ano ang tanging nakasakit sa akin?

natatandaan ko pa yung moment na yun, e.. nasa klase tayo.. tapos tinanong niya ulit ako kung kelan ko na daw ipapa-cancel.. sabi ko sa susunod na araw.. tapos dinugtungan ko: "pero itra-try kong ma-convince si mama na wag na akong mag-LOA.." tapos nakita ko yung reactions niyo, na dismayado kayo't naiinis.. hanggang ngayon, hinihiling ko na sana hindi ko nalang narinig yung sinabi ni Raine pagkalingon ko: "tang'ina naman o.."

hindi niyo lang alam kung gaano kasakit nun para sa akin.. hindi niyo lang alam kung gaano kasama ng pakiramdam ko sa mga ginagawa niyo sakin.. hindi niyo lang alam kung paano ako unti-unting pinapatay ng mga nangyayaring ito..

hindi lang ako pumapalag.. hindi lang ako gumaganti... hindi lang ako nagsasalita.. kasi alam kong hindi tama na gawin ko yun.. ayokong gawin sa iba ang ginawa mo sakin..

i just don't know if you guys realize how much effort i've put into this..

i just don't know if you'll ever realize that..

ako na nga itong dehado, ako pa itong ginagago. tanginang buhay naman ito, o.

2006-07-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

it saddens me that you have to resort to name-dropping and paninira just to quench your thirst for revenge.. and not just a shallow, sarcastic melancholy.. as in deep, heartbreaking, parang walang pinagsamahan-state of depression..

they were right, ignorance is bliss nga pala talaga.. i'd rather not know, kasi when i found out, i realized na masakit pala na mamulat sa katotohanan na bumababa na pala ang respeto mo sa isang taong minsa'y naging malapit sa iyo..

and you know what hurts me more? it's the sad realization that someone who has a reputation of being wise and critical is willing to sacrifice her credibilty by allowing herself to be blinded by their friendship..

if this 'petty fight' will divide the barkada, then i'd rather leave the group.. i'd hate to see things end up that way..

i'll leave for the barkada, yet i still won't sacrifice my pride..

2006-07-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

if you found out something, something someone didn’t want you to know about them, would you tell them?

That depends. Is that person someone you care about?

Yeah.

And does keeping the secret hurt anyone?

No.

Then my answer is no. If I really cared about that person, I wouldn’t tell them that I knew. But I would go out of my way to be supportive of them so that hopefully, one day, they would be comfortable enough to tell me themselves.

I’ve learned the hard way that people keep secrets for a reason, even from the people they’re closest to.

I’m sure whoever it is that you’re talking about will tell you when they’re ready.

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It must’ve been so hard being so different, having everyone judge you before they even know you, knowing that there’s some people that might never accept you.

I just... I want you to know that I’m here for you... if you ever need to talk.

Thanks. I appreciate that.

2006-07-11T19:58:00.000+08:00

i know you are talking behind my back.. i just laughed when you tried to retaliate/defend yourself when you said that you're not the only ones talking.. heck, nobody even needs to say anything.. i can figure that out by myself.. it's pretty obvious, anyway..

i don't care what they think of me.. screw them! who are they to judge me, anyway? but, just a reality check: what sets you guys apart from them is the fact that you are what i thought to be my friends..

i dunno about you, but in my world, friends don't stab each other's backs.. they tell each other, in a nice way, of their mistakes, but never talk behind their back.. never..

so if you manage to read this, at least you now know why i'm pretty short with you lately.. i just can't believe that a person i considered a very good friend would do such a thing.. *shakes head*

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pardon me for the sudden mood swing, pero i'm soooo freakin' happy right now! pano ba naman kasi, i managed to convince my mom to change her mind.. so that means i'm not going to file for an LOA! w000000t!

at least those numerous counts of pleading and begging finally paid off! hehehe..

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excuse me, but i just couldn't pass this up: ha! that means you must be pretty pissed off right now.. you just practically wasted all your time doing him favors, and all that went down the drain, just like that.. the next time you see me, deep inside i'm snickering at your defeat.. *insert pheobe & joey's evil plan laugh here*

2006-07-10T09:55:00.000+08:00

day four on the alien dorm..

i feel like an outcast here.. la pa akong kilala, la pa akong nakaka-usap.. heck, i'm stuck in my room all day watching movies.. taena, lang magawa..

although everything in the new dorm seems bad, it does have its perks..

for starters, we don't have a curfew.. not that i come home late.. sarap lang nung pakiramdam na pwede akong umuwi anytime i want to..

also, it is only now i realized how beautiful intramuros really is.. only made me crave for a digicam more..

the view from the dorm roofdeck and from the baluarte is soooo romantic.. if only i have someone to share that moment with..

*sighs*

2006-07-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

finally transferred to my new dorm.. not that i want to..

ugh, the toilet and shower here sucks.. help me!

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got this message from my mom this morning:

kung titigil k ngayun how much ang marerefund m? kc nagemail t2 jr at ang sabi nya mas maganda na pagdating s usa ay magwork k ng related s coureses n at s gabi magaral at magmaster dun. kahit ano ganda daw ng mapua ay di daw kilala. TOEFL ang need para maka enrol. mas ok kuha k ng web dsgn courses, c, c++, java o any popular languages kc in dmand daw ang programing at networking skills

i was like, WTF?!

dati ko nang kino-convince si mama na magtrabaho nalang, kasi wala din lang namang macre-credit sa US na units, pati parang nagsasayang lang kami ng pera kung mag-aaral pa ako.. at kung kailan naman naka-set na ang utak ko sa pag-aaral, sabay sasabihin sakin na kumuha nalang ako ng short courses o magtrabaho?

labo naman, o.. *scratches head*

2006-07-05T17:06:00.000+08:00

lo and behold, the schedule that will slowly kill me in the next three months..

2006-07-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

ayan.. i already gave my downpayment for the slot in the new dorm.. nope, there's no turning back now..

i'm gonna miss Madrigal.. i've made a lot of friends there, e.. i just hope that i blend with the Walled City crowd..

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just received a testimonial from blanca.. now, i don't normally go around telling people that, but this particular one intrigues me..

since when did i start giving people the impression that i'm a metrosexual? although i try to be as presentable and as clean as i can, i haven't even thought of crossing the clean and vain guy-metrosexual boundary.. pati maarte? *scratches head*

for those of you wondering, yes, that is britney in the background.. hehe.. ^__^

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call me selfish and all, pero there's a teeny tiny part in me that hates the fact that Pacquiao won the match last sunday..

for the love of christ, his victory will result to the inflation of his advertisement offers, and that he'll be inescapable! imagine, everywhere you turn you'll see him and his wife, endorsing some product they don't even use.. ugh, just thinking about it makes me sick to the stomach.. *pukes*

2006-06-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

my life is soooo f_cked up right now..

what started as an academically-excellent term is rapidly turning into this quarter sent from the fiery depths of hell.. t_ngina, i thought i was doing well with schoolwork, only to be given a reality check upon realizing how low my end-of-term marks are.. and to think i even thought i'd get a scholarship this term.. ugh..

plus, i'm soooo unprepared to leave my dorm.. i love it here, and yet i have no choice but to move-out.. now i'm forced to transfer to another dorm.. and after a couple of months of searching, i have to settle in one that has toilets that don't flush.. *wails*

not to mention my mom's sudden loss of trust in me.. dunno what's gotten into her.. and now she insists that she pay for my tuition herself.. what's up with that?

good god, help me with this dilemma..

2006-06-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry to say this, Raine, pero that's one birthday gift you won't get from me..

i won't provoke him.. i won't start any fights.. heck, i won't even bring it up..

i just don't like the idea of having to compromise when i'm not the one who's at fault.. no, i won't stoop down to that level.. for once i'm going to stand up for myself.. i'm not going to take all the blame for this.. i'm sick and tired of all that sh_t..

only when i receive his concession will your wish be granted..

if only you knew how that incident hit me deep down.. geez, i haven't felt pain, anguish and regret like that in years..

and by the way, only when you two have mustered enough courage to tell me everything you know will i reveal to you who the true Monarch really is.. to hell with him, he doesn't have the right to just assume at ipagduldulan sa pagmumukha ko yun! and that goes for everyone i know as well!

and please, wag kang maiyak dahil samin.. really, it's not worth crying over.. really really.. pati, naaawa ako sa iyo, e.. tuloy, naluluha rin tuloy ako.. T__T

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wondering what the hell i'm blabberin' about? maybe you'll find out soon enough..

ayun lang po.. ^__^ [tangina, nakuha pang magbiro sa ganitong sitwasyon.. hehe..]

2006-06-24T20:58:00.000+08:00

a lot of things [damn you!] pissed me off today.. the wierd thing is that when i passed by the lobby, they all seemed to notice.. at talagang tumalikod pa si ate jo para makita akong galit..

and, as i was bloghoppin', i stumbled across this:

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
it managed to make me smile.. definitely my kind of humor..

2006-06-19T18:18:00.000+08:00

i can understand why you act that way.. i just don't see why you have to..

i'll let you tell others your side of the story.. i'll just keep things to myself.. i'll just absorb all of your blows and not retaliate..

i'm doing all this so that i can at least preserve what's left of our friendship..

2006-06-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

i swore i would never return to that place ever again, and yet i did.. well, my spider senses told me to.. it's a good thing i did..

see, the moment those elevator doors opened, there stood my crush.. sayang nga lang kasi i was on my way out of the elevator.. i didn't even stay kasi, for starters, may kasama siya.. plus, it would look very wierd not getting out on the last floor..

what makes it all worth it is that our eyes made contact.. even if it only lasted for only a split-second, it's enough to keep me high 'til the next time na makita ko siya..

*dazed*

2006-06-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

just came back from our school outing.. it was a good day.. it was in a resort in Lipa, pero didn't swim.. nahihiya pa ako sa katawan ko, e.. hehe.. so i just granted my given role as the official group photographer.. the stifling heat, which i had to endure while i followed my friends around as they transferred from one pool to another, gave me a mild sunburn.. well, at least i got a great view of my crushes.. UBER-HOT! w0000t! haha..

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i find the gym here in intramuros intimidating, so i'm putting off the idea of bodybuilding for a while.. so, i just bought a new set of diet pills.. got it from the same drug store where i got my banig of Zhen De Shou.. the clerk suggested this pill named Goodliness.. i just hope it's effective, unlike its name.. *gags*

anyway, i'm gonna start taking it tomorrow.. sana lang this time i'm not allergic to this one.. ^__^

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this made my day: Grammatical Errors That Make You Cringe

this one post made me laugh hysterically.. well, in my mind, at least.. the most i can blurb out when i'm alone is a chuckle..

Buy 2 pant, get one pant free.

amfness..

2006-06-01T23:43:00.000+08:00

i once considered entering the call-center industry as a part-time agent.. pero i scrapped it off my list the moment i realized it would be very taxing to commute all the way to work and come back too exhausted to accomplish school stuff..

just the other day i realized the perfect job for me.. when a friend and i went to Starbucks Intramuros, there was this girl who asked for an application form, since she wanted to work there..

it struck me as my perfect part-time job! it's close to my dorm, the work hours are not that long, the pay's pretty good, i get to practice my english and my accent, and i even get a daily food allowance [for the employees to get their daily fix of biscottis and frappes]..

i'll get a form first thing on saturday.. part-time employment here i come! w0000t!

2006-05-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

snatched from this blog..

Basic rules:
1) List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2) Don't say who they are.

1. akala ko ikaw na.. as in dazed ako nung nagkakilala tayo.. pero, ewan ko kung bakit, pero biglang nawala yung spark, e.. pasensya na.. friends parin naman tayo..

2. ginawa ko naman lahat ng pwede kong gawin, a? kung magsalita ka as if wala akong naitulong.. akala ko pa man din maintindihan mo ang sitwasyon ko.. pati kailangan ba ako nalang palagi ang kumikilos? mahiya ka naman sakin, kahit konti lang..

3. akala ko of all people kayo ang makakaintindi.. buti nalang hindi pa ako nag-sasalita.. isang malaking dagok sa pagkatao ko yung mga sinabi niyo..

4. buti nalang i haven't made any moves yet.. i'll just wait for cupid do its moves.. malapit na tayong magkakilala..

5. sana lang iniisip mo na medyo napapahiya mo na ako kapag lagi mong ipinagduduldulan sa mukha ko yung pagkakamali ko..

6. nung una, isnaban.. pero buti nalang nagkatinginan at nagkangitian na tayo kanina.. it's a start..

7. uy, kakilala mo pala siya.. nung isang beses na magkasama tayo, bigla siyang lumapit at nakipagusap sayo.. sana naman ipakilala mo ako sa kanya..

8. nampucha naman, makahalata ka naman kapag naaasar na ang tao sayo! t_ngina naman, naka-kunot na ang noo ko, kinakabahan na ang mga tao sa paligid ko, tuloy ka parin! malasin ka sana buong buhay mo..

9. gulong-gulo na ako.. sana naman matulungan mo ako.. feeling ko maiintindihan mo ako.. naiintindihan ko kasi ang sitwasyon mo, e..

10. isang araw, sasabihin ko rin.. hindi pa ngayon, hindi pa kasi tamang oras..

* pasensya na kung medyo off yung mga sinabi ko.. kumukulo kasi ang ulo ko sa ibang tao, e..

2006-05-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

for the first time in months, i once again played DotA..

it brought back a lot of memories and emotions.. still, nothing has changed..

i was still the one they mocked, seeing that i'm not as skilled and as adept as they are.. i was the target, feeding enemies the gold they crave.. i was even surprised that there were post-game talks, trying to convince me that i wasn't the one that paved the way to our team's demise, or that if they didn't finish the game soon, o'd be the one to lead our camp to victory..

ahh.. i've never felt more refreshed..

DotA is love.. *dazed*

2006-05-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

gusto kong mag-qualifying exam para sa Mensa Philippines.. wala lang, trip-trip lang..

asa ka pa! *sabay hampas*

2006-05-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

i got my wallet back today! yay! thank god i haven't told my folks yet.. hehe..

apparently, the thief took what he thought was all the money i had and left it on the school gym floor.. this girl saw it and searched for any identification.. thankfully there was a receipt with my name on it.. for some reason she managed to get my number from a common friend and texted me..

thankfully the thief didn't care enough to look for loot in my wallet's sleeves.. when i got it back today, my savings were still there! that means i just lost a few hundred pesos.. w000t!

shame the blessed girl was on the grumpy side.. i would have made friends with her, kaso nga lang she seems uninterested with the idea.. may god bless her soul pa rin..

i am sooooooo blessed..

2006-05-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

i lost my wallet today.. f_ck..

the sad thing about it is that i was supposed to empty it last night.. it;s just that i forgot to..

buti pa si decci, glasses lang.. ako? wala lang.. isang wallet nga lang naman na may laman na napalaking halaga, mga dokumentong importante, at yung ATM card ko.. t_ngina..

and i can't even imagine how i would tell my folks about it.. walang lusot, kailangang sabihin sa kanila, e.. wala akong mapapagutangan ng pang-allowance.. plus kailangang sabihin kasi di ko alam ang account details ko sa banko, e si mama ang maglalakad nun..

sayang yung ipon ko dun.. i would start going to the gym sana tomorrow had i not lost my wallet..

and what's worse is that i still have a lot of bills to pay.. sh_t, i was supposed to pay some dues in our org.. hell, i'm planning to pay back decci if ever our Da Vinci meet-up would push through.. now i don't even have the money to watch the damn movie..

definitely one of the worst days of my life..

@#%&@))#&*%^&^%_)+!*#=@!

2006-05-12T18:57:00.000+08:00

i hate the fact that i have to stop taking those diet pills.. for the first time in my life i've experienced allergies, all thanks to those pills..

anyway, i'll soon start going to the gym.. july is originally my target month, but for some reason i'm compelled to start next week! maybe thrice a week, most likely on my vacant periods in the afternoon..

2006-05-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

happy 1st anniversary, blog!

i guess this one's for keeps.. no blog of mine lasted this long.. hehe..

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it's just my sixth day into the diet pills thingy, and i already see stretch marks on my waist..

others hate stretch marks.. i welcome it.. at least i have a visual indicator that i'm losing weight.. ^__^

2006-05-05T23:38:00.000+08:00

i just started taking slimming pills today..

wish me luck.. ^_^

2006-04-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

i've been doing a lot of updating lately, but obviously not on this one..

you'll all know soon enough.. *wink wink*

2006-04-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

went to Tuao, Cagayan saturday night.. whose ass wouldn't get hurt in a trip like that, most especially since you couldn't leave your seat for 13 hours?

to make things worse, i got lost in Nueva Ecija after my tito decided to drop me off there on my way back to Manila..

ugh, if it weren't for my lolo's 80th birthday, i would never have done that..

2006-04-22T09:40:00.000+08:00

t_nginang fire drill yan.. panira ng araw..

2006-04-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

the new school term has already started..

kinduv sucky, though, no profs showed up in the first day.. buti nalang our TThS profs didn't stood us up.. also glad to know that Ms. Santoyo, who from what i hear is a very kind and effective instructor, is my professor in three subjects..

plus, i'm with my friends again! yay!

2006-04-15T18:20:00.000+08:00

just a few of my medyo massive MP3 album collection.. just goes to show that i have a pretty diverse taste in music.. most of these were downloaded in the past month, mainly due to boredom.. i'll update this list soon, though..

i just hope i have the time to actually listen to all of them.. teehee..

2006-04-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

The Wikipedia Birthday Meme: Go to Wikipedia and look up your birthday (excluding the year). List three neat facts, two births and one death in your journal, including the year.

Events
1904 - First New York City Subway line opens; the system becomes biggest in United States of America, and one of the biggest in world.
1973 - The Canyon City meteorite, a 1.4 kg chondrite type meteorite strikes in Fremont County, Colorado.
2005 - Riots begin in Paris after the deaths of two Muslim teenagers.

Births
1858 - Theodore Roosevelt, 26th President of the United States, recipient of the Nobel Peace Prize (d. 1919)
1984 - Kelly Osbourne, English television personality

Death
1992 - David Bohm, American-born physicist, philosopher, and neuropsychologist (b. 1917)

nothing interesting happens in my birthday.. ugh..

2006-04-09T06:58:00.000+08:00

the best movie screenshot ever:

2006-04-09T04:18:00.000+08:00

i hate it when you are given a choice, and then you end up not having a say at anything..

i sacrificed not going to Manila early just to accomplish some things that are long overdue.. and yet i find out at the last minute that i will be leaving tonight, not because i have to, but just because my mom wants me to..

i may seem shallow, but when this happens all the time, it gets pretty annoying.. besides, what's the point of giving options if in the end it will never be considered, anyway?

and now i'm still up at this ungodly hour, trying to cram a week's worth of things to do in one night.. sheesh..

2006-04-08T01:35:00.000+08:00

the past 72 hours hasn't been good to me.. power interruptions & a PC meltdown didn't do much help either..

sleeplessness is slowly sucking away my soul..

2006-04-05T10:09:00.000+08:00

ever wondered how microsoft would have packaged the iPod? well, you're just about to see for yourself..

rumor has it that microsoft employees did this video themselves, just for fun..

2006-04-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

just found out this morning na lalayo na pala talaga ako sa mapúa.. final na daw..

i just don't know why i have to be the one who has to sacrifice.. sure, it's cooler there, pero mas maganda parin sa mapúa.. besides, mauulit andami ko nanamang maiiwan na tao nito, and i don't want to go through the whole ordeal again..

*teary eyed*

2006-04-04T09:04:00.000+08:00

ewan ko kung bakit, pero after i woke up this morning, i headed straight for the mirror.. there, i was aghast with what i saw..

on the edges of the back side of my jaw lay a layer of adipose thicker than when i last saw it.. you know, the type that, when you retract your head, will give you a double chin and a cheekier cheek..

dammit! all those weeks of strict [okay fine, maybe not that strict] dieting down the drain.. i knew this would happen, but not to the point of having more facial fat! i mean, that's the most prominent indicator of gaining weight..

that's it! starting today, i don't care what they say.. no more eating dinner, no more second helpings, and no more midnight snacks..

2006-04-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

Bianca Gonzales deserves to win the Celebrity Edition of Pinoy Big Brother.. hands down..

ako ang naaawa para sa kanya.. it is unfair to judge bianca just because she became really close to zanjoe.. for starters, we can't exactly say how we would react to the situation if we were in her place.. it's easy to say that we wouldn't, but i'm sure it'll be hard when we're actually there.. besides, it wouldn't be fair to her to be judged solely on the bianjoe issue.. she has done a hell lot of great things before PBB, and all of those were overshadowed by the public's perception of her being unfaithful? bullcrap!

bianca, isa kang huwaran sa kabataang pilipino.. nawa'y ikaw ang manalo! cheers!

and, for the record, i didn't vote for her.. not once.. kahit sa bet ko sa season 1, di parin ako bumoto.. waste of money, imho..

UPDATE [11:43 pm]: dammit! bianca's out.. well, at least she placed higher than zanjoe.. pfft..

2006-03-31T16:40:00.000+08:00

i just realized something.. you guys probably know the song Kamikazee's Narda, right? isn't it that there's a line there that goes sa likod ng mga tala, kahit sulyap lang Darna..? tapos di ba Darna has a star in each cup of her bra?

subliminal and sleazy.. i don't know why, pero i like it even more tuloy.. hehe..

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Britney was also accused of slipping subliminal messages in her songs.. this would seem ordinary, but hers were obtained by backmasking her songs..

geez, the things people do to get attention.. *rolls eyes*

2006-03-30T20:15:00.000+08:00

after several grueling hours of continuously refreshing the schedule window while keeping a keen eye on slots that have been freed, i finally have my schedule for next term:

god help me with this one.. haha..

2006-03-28T19:57:00.000+08:00

i'll be leaving for manila tonight! w000t!

thank god my mom already gave in.. buti nalang i managed to convince her.. i can't imagine what i would do if she didn't.. thank god!

2006-03-28T10:13:00.000+08:00

yesterday, I had a little chat with my tito in California.. he said that most probably we'd be out of the Philippines before the year ends.. why so soon? mami-miss ko ang pinas..

besides, I didn't get my hopes up too much.. I've heard them say that a lot of times before, and somehow we're still here.. pero my tito showed me proof that we'd actually be leaving soon: he showed me the online VISA bulletin of the US embassy.. he talked a lot about us being petitioned in august of 91, and that we were classified under 3rd priority.. since the queue has already started going through those petitioned in 1991, malapit na daw kami.. sana lang totoo na ito..

tapos, we also talked about which university they'd send me off to.. I previously expressed my desire to study in CalTech or MIT.. pero, after learning that studying in either will cost us $50k a year, I'd rather study in UCLA or UC Berkeley nalang, at $5k per year..

then why the hell am i wasting my time here studying? joke lang..

sked24

2006-03-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

if everything goes as planned, i'd leave for Manila tomorrow night.. and if nothing goes wrong, this should be my schedule next quarter:

2006-03-26T18:45:00.000+08:00

ako man, di makapaniwala, pero na-postpone ang aking unang misa ng taon..

kanina, nung naliligo ako, nagsimula nang umambon.. naisip ko, nakupo, pahirapan nanaman sa pagpunta sa simbahan.. nang nagbibihis na ako, biglang lumakas ang buhos ng ulan.. nang handa na kaming umalis, saka lang namin napansin na sobrang baha na sa labas..

ewan ko kung matatawa ako o ano..

2006-03-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

ayan.. sunday na.. for the first time this year, magsisimba na ulit ako..

bakit ngayon lang ulit?

magagalit si mama kung hindi ako sasama.. at hindi yung galit na magtatampo lang, kundi galit as in mag-aalburutong galit!

bakit ayaw ko?

ewan ko rin.. siguro dahil na rin sa pag-aral ko sa isang science high school.. nung bata pa ako, sinabi nila na ginawa ng Diyos ang mundo in 7 days.. nang tumungtong ako sa high school, natutunan ko kay Mam Connie ang Big Bang at kay Mam Eden ang primordial soup, na siyang pinagmulan daw ng lahat-lahat ng nakikita natin..

isang dahilan na rin siguro ang mga inconsistencies na kasama na sa Catholicism.. i mean, yung trato nila sa mga scientists noon, yung commandment 1 & intercessions, commandment 2 & the idols, etc..

pero Katoliko parin ba ako?

uhm, technically, oo.. pero dahil na rin sa pagmulat sa akin nina Mam Evangelista [prof ko sa Humanities] at Sir Orcena [sa Sociology naman], na-realize ko na ang tamang tawag sa akin ay isang Agnostic.. at least alam ko na..

pero naniniwala parin ba ako sa Diyos?

oo naman.. ewan ko kung bakit, pero, oo, naniwala parin ako sa Diyos..

2006-03-25T15:18:00.000+08:00

pretty is in the eyes of the beholder.. beautiful is in the soul..

so true, so true.. intrigues me so much, it makes me want to watch Nip/Tuck tuloy..

2006-03-24T08:12:00.000+08:00

my PC is not working like it's supposed to.. like, everytime i try to access the Task Manager, it closes after a couple of seconds.. then whenever i try to load antivirus websites, the same thing happens.. the same is true when i try to install antivirus software..

i figured this could be the work of spyware, so i installed a spyware-removal app and immunized this PC.. but it still rejects antivirus installation..

what the hell is wrong with this PC?

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i can't get my mother to listen to what i have to say..

the more i try to make her understand my situation, the more she tries to make up some lame excuse to keep me from explaining my side..

is this generation gap, or is my mom just really not the open-minded person i thought she was?

2006-03-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

philippine science high, thou stands above with thy thoughts that lift,
and fit all thy sons with wings, to lend us flight in the sowing of our gifts..

oh, philippine science high, thy wisdom arms our youth,
as we reach for our dreams, as we strive for our goals, as we search for the untarnished truth..

philippine science high, the PSHS in us will grow,
and go as we wonder o'er, the crests and troughs of the sea of life that flows..

oh, philippine science high, thy light our beacon be,
in our path through the world, in our fight for our right, in pursuit of a glorious dream..

malapit na ang graduation day ng kapatid ko.. naalala ko tuloy yung akin.. isa yun sa mga araw na hinding-hindi ko malilimutan.. hindi lang para sa mga magagandang ala-ala na iniwan nito, kundi para rin sa napakaraming bagay that went horribly wrong that day..

tama na.. kukulo lang lalo dugo mo..

2006-03-21T19:19:00.000+08:00

haaay.. andito na ako sa nueva vizcaya.. totally unexpected? sobra..

yesterday afternoon, my mother called me to say na pinapauwi na niya ako.. sayang, marami pa naman akong plans.. meet-ups para sa yearbook namin, outing para sa birthday ni shine, magturo ng english sa mga koreano.. haay..

at least mapapanood ko na yung Britney DVD na binili ko nung January pa.. w000t!

2006-03-20T11:53:00.000+08:00

britney's statement has so many levels.. her first doctrine somehow came true.. will she be right this time?

let go of your heart.. follow your instincts.. take control of it, or it might take control of you..

She's The Man has so many levels.. i wouldn't normally say that i can relate to that movie, but i do.. i really, really do.. i just don't know why..

the word arcane has so many levels.. it explains my personality.. it explains my taste.. it explains my friends..

the song where are you has so many levels.. don't ask.. i won't tell..

so many levels, so little wiggle room.. frustrates me even more..

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tae, hindi pa ngayon yung exam nung scholarship sa japan.. sa june pa pala.. ba yan!

tapos, the exam will put a lot of emphasis on nihonggo fluency.. tapos i have to take proficiency exams on two sciences.. paano na yun? i'll be spending the one-month vacation attempting to learn a foreign language.. not to mention brushing up on physics and chemistry..

so much for a vacation.. pfft..

2006-03-19T10:40:00.000+08:00

mukhang super saya nito.. if Star Cinema managed to get away with Close to You, then maybe they can pull this one off too.. sige na, try watching the trailer.. made me want to watch it, and i definitely will..

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anyone got an mp3 of this song? all time fave song ko ito.. very heartwarming kasi..

and if by chance you have a clear copy of the full version of the McJelly trio jingle, you mind sharing it with me? LSS ko yun ngayon, e..

2006-03-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

tell me things i don't know.. tell me what you think of me..

update my johari window..

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i didn't push through with the scholarship exam kanina.. well, almost.. my dormmate glady somehow convinced me to..

when we arrived at CSB, we rushed to the entrance to ask the guard if their office is still accepting applicants.. they told me we didn't make it, since the cut-off was at noon, and they already started the exam...

but we can come back monday if we want to! the japanese hosts decided to extend the application period to monday..

at least i can brush up on my math and science.. w00000t!

2006-03-18T00:31:00.000+08:00

thursday night my mother called me to ask me to run a couple of errands for her.. the first one's about my brother's UST application [his requirement submission conflicts with his graduation day].. the next one's for me to call CSB regarding a scholarshup for japan..

nagulat ako.. para sakin pala yung isa.. so, yesterday i called the numbers posted in the broadsheet ad, and after numerous busy tones, it finally picked up.. after entering a lot of locals, one came through and a girl received my call..

tae, the exam consists of exams on science, math, and nihonggo.. the science and math parts, i can do, but nihonggo? naknang naman..

kaya tuloy hindi nanaman ako matutulog ngayon gabi.. crash course on the japanese language..

kala ko matatapos na kalbaryo ko pagkatapos ng finals.. inde pa pala..

2006-03-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

earlier today, tin and i went to the PBBTE screening.. ako, pinilit ni mama.. siya, ayaw ng mom niya.. pero pareho kaming trinatong trip-trip lang iyon..

taena, ayos din yung experience.. sobrang haba nung pila, papasok ng ELJ building.. after almost 2 hours ng paghihintay, nang papalapit na kaming dun sa airconditioned part, kinuha yung ID na may control number na binigay samin sa start nung pila.. pagkatapos nun, pinapasok na kami..

excited yung iba.. kami, wala lang.. ini-direct kami nung mga sekyu kung san dadaan.. tapos dumating sa isang part na hindi na siya glitzy, na gray nalang ang walls and may mga pipes na nakalitaw.. nag-joke ako: "antagal natin pumila, tapos diretso na pala tayo sa exit.. haha.."

p_cha, bumungad nga samin ang gate.. yun na yun..

nung una, hindi pa kami makapaniwala ni tin.. anong nangyari? yun na ba yun? ganon ba kabilis ang mga pangyayari at hindi man lang namin napansin na may sumuri na sa amin?

nung na-compose na namin ang aming mga sarili, na-realize namin na medyo astig din ang screening nila.. mala-Big Brother talaga.. ino-obserbahan ka nila habang nakapila ka palang.. kaya pala sinabi nung sekyu dun sa mga malapit samin, nung nasa may bandang end na kami, na wag daw mag-ingay, kasi malapit daw kami sa area ni direk..

nakakatawa.. nakakaloko.. nakakabaliw..

next time, sa senior edition nalang..

2006-03-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

first UBE [Ultimate Bonding Experience] na kumpleto kami! woohoo!

get to know the UBE gang:
L-R: Monarch, Kristine, Janessa, Lorraine, Pierce, Reneiro, Angelique

astig ng shot kasi medyo maangas ang dating.. pero sabi ni raine, parang cast ng noontime show..

thank god the bunny, the chick, and the teddy in the background weren't in the frame..

si angel, may sungay.. hehe..

give me a leather coat, and i'll go ala-Brokeback..

a photoshoot won't be complete without a wacky pose..

2006-03-16T01:46:00.000+08:00

i was navigating myself through peyups when i came through odessa's math17 article..

reminded me of how outraged i was upon reading numerous posters' comments.. i don't think they got the message she was trying to convey.. hell, they just don't sense the sarcasm in her post..

just one of my numerous arcane friends.. yet we understand each other perfectly well..

2006-03-16T00:31:00.000+08:00

Bumaba ako sa jeepney kung saan tayo'y dating magkatabi.. Magkahalik ang pisngi nating dalawa.. Panyo mo sa aking bulsa, ang amoy mo'y naroon parin.. Tawa nati'y humahalay sa init nating dalawa.. At ngayo'y wala na, tapos na.. Naaalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalim ng kalawakan.. Naaalala ko ang mga gabing magkatabi sa ulan.. Kulay ng iyong ngiti at tikwas ng iyong buhok.. Ang lambot ng iyong labi.. Kahit anino mo sa malayo ay nais masulyapan upang mapawi ang lamig.. Subalit ngayo'y wala na.. Ikaw ay lumayo na.. Magkatabi sa ulan, Dungawin ang araw..

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di nababagay sakin ang ganitong kanta.. di ko nga lang alam kung sino sa aking buhay ang tinutukoy nito.. ipinagtataka ko lang kung bakit ito ang pinagsisigawang ng puso ko ngayon..

mahirap maipaliwanag, ngunit mas mahirap maintindihan..

2006-03-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

There is someone out there for me
I know she is waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?

Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?

I'm staring out at the sky
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?

Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?

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i only just realized that i'm arcane in my own right..

maybe that's the reason why i'm still waiting for the right one..

2006-03-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

may katulad na akong shirt sa school.. i saw a guy with a PEOPLE POWER shirt, only his was in royal blue..

at least hindi lang ako ang naastigan sa shirt na yun.. pati baka ngayon mabawasan yung mga taong nag-iisip na aktibista ako..

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delikado ako sa admath ko.. kailangan kong ma-prefect ang exam para pumasa.. well, actually, hindi pa sigurado yun.. kung magawa ko man yun, ipagdadasal ko parin na magbaba si Sir Ang ng passing grade.. pag ginawa niya yun, siguro papasa na ako..

precisely the reason why i'm staying up all night tonight.. review to the max na ito!

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had a haircut yesterday.. p_ksh_t yung bading na nag-ayos [kung matatawag mong ayos yun] sa buhok ko!

sh_t, pag sinabi layered, di ba isa lang naman yung style na yun? pati kung may iba man itsura yun, damn, ilang beses na akong nagpagupit sa place na yun.. ngayon pa tinopak!

t_ng_na, sobrang ikli nung ginawa niyang gupit! parang kagagaling ko lang sa semi-kal.. hindi talaga bagay sakin.. leche!

the sole reason why i wanted to get my hair done before the school term ends ay para makita naman ako ni crush na mas maayos ang itsura.. taena, mas nagmukhang gago ako sa bago kong gupit e..

hindi na ako babalik dun, swear!

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p_cha, minamalas lang talaga ako ngayon araw na 'to!