Tuesday, January 31, 2006

January '06.. a rather memorable month, if you ask me..

starting the new term.. taking new subjects.. knowing new friends..

having my crush as my classmate.. almost always seeing my other crush in their tambayan.. new pretty girls, not to mention my new crush, moving into our dorm..

losing my tribal purse, which contained a pretty large amount of cash.. other people tarnishing my reputation..

and so many other events i can't recall..

it is only minutes before February beckons us, and yet here i am, loathing the way i lived the past month..

what a way to welcome the new month..

Monday, January 30, 2006

the other day, my friends and i went to SM San Lazaro, so that i can see for myself what the fuss is all about, and for them to go KTV crazy..

before the trip there, my friend told me that there are two ways to go there.. first is through the LRT, and the second is through jeepneys.. since walking all the way from Mapúa to the central station is quite tiring for me, i opted to ride the jeep instead..

if only i knew of the god-who-knows-how-long time it takes to get there, i would have chosen the LRT anytime..

not only did the trip last for almost an hour, but i also breathed air that is 70% carbon monoxide, inhaled awful stenches of the places the jeepney passed through, endured the stifling heat [which was intensified by various air pollutants].. ugh, just thinking about it makes me sick..

but, if the trip didn't take that long, i would never have contemplated on how lucky i am pala in life.. i mean, i saw a lot of those slums on television and in the movies, and they sure are heart-wrenching.. but what i saw during the trip made me realize how protected and sheltered we were..

the buildings were very cramped, it would be horrifying to imagine if a fire would start there.. street children walking around, some of them even inhaling rugby.. sidewalks that looked scary even for walking, for fear of being robbed or cornered.. there are even more horrid snapshots i can't recall, and it better stay that way..

i envy those who can get what they want within reach.. now that i saw all this, it makes me feel happy and contented with what i have right now..

Sunday, January 29, 2006

it has been a week since pacquiao's victory.. channel two squeezed out all the stories they can get from the rematch just to fill out the airtime they need [not to mention the supposed ratings they will reap, assuming a lot would watch everything with pacman on it]..

while my dormmates watched the Pacquiao-Morales fight in our dormitory lobby, i opted to stay in the safety of my room and instead have a Great Teacher Onizuka marathon.. curious as i was, i constantly switched from rematch to anime, since the advertized 10am fight was actually for the pre-fights..

then, it came: the match has started.. and, right then and there, i felt bad for the Filipino community.. there he was, Pacquiao giving a rather dismal performance.. i mean, geez, round one palang, ganyan na ang performance mo, ano pa kaya sa mga susunod na rounds! since i didn't want to endure seeing him getting hurt like that, only to be disappointed in the end.. so, i decided to continue watching GTO instead..

as i was enjoying crazy antics and the facial impressions of Onizuka, i heard screams coming from the houses across our window, plus a much louder scowl from our lobby.. i immediately changed channels, only to see Pacquiao beating the hell out of Morales.. of course, nagulat ako, mainly because i expected Pacquiao to be KO'd soon..

minutes later, i received an SMS from Odessa, saying that Pacquiao won the match.. i texted back to confirm if that was true, and then she replied that Pacquiao KO'd Morales in the tenth round.. so much for spoilers.. hehe..

i constantly switched from GTO to The Battle, with my heart pounding louder as the tenth round approached even closer..

and then, the pounding came to a stop.. Pacquiao managed to give Morales his first Knock-Out..

i could never have been so wrong of a person, and it happened to be the person who managed to give the Filipino people a reason to celebrate, to rejoice, and to reunite..

Friday, January 20, 2006

sa lahat ng ayaw ko ay yung sinisira ng iba ang pangalan ko.. akala ko pa naman kaibigan kita..

at ikaw naman, bina-back-up-an mo pa siya, e alam mo naman na ako ang tama..

ewan ko sa inyo.. ma-karma sana kayo.. leche..

the other day, marco sent me this text message:

si marco, pag nakikita ko, parang color ----...
choose one: pink, blue, yellow, orange, green, white, black, red...
send ko meaning after..

i replaced 'marco' with 'monarch' and sent it to all my globe contacts..

there were a few blues and whites, but most of the replies, specifically from most my muocus friends, were pink..

fa-neh.. *ngyek*

[for those of you guys who don't know, back in high school, i was associated by my classmates to the color pink, courtesy of aiza.. for some reason, i forgot why..]

by the way, pink means blooming palagi, blue means sporty, yellow is simple, orange is pala-ngiti, green stands for masungit, white is todo-bait, black is misteryoso, and red stands for wild..

ngayon ko lang na-realize na hindi lang pala sa gobyerno, showbiz, at award shows ka pwedeng mapulitika..

si orgmate, napulitika din.. ginawang probie sa kabilang org, kasi di sila magkasundo nung MemComHead dun..

parang ako, napulitika din, probie ngayon sa org.. hay naku, nagbibigay pa ng kung anu-anong dahilan, di pa kasi sabihin ang totoo kung bakit kai-induct ko palang sa org, probie na agad ako..

tsk tsk.. some people of authority just abuse and take advantage of the power given to them.. di ako magtataka kung ganito ang gobyerno natin ngayon..

shame shame..

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

last weekend, pumunta kami sa bahay ni Raine, isang blockmate ko from Tondo, kasi fiesta ng Sto. Niño nun..

sobrang saya! pano ba naman, ang ginawa lang namin dun ay nag-kwentuhan at nag-picture-an.. magka-karaoke pa sana kami, kaso nga lang yung friends ng kuya nung blockmate ko, hiniram yung mic, hindi na bumalik samin.. hinintay pa namin yun hanggang 3am, kaso nung kami na, hindi na pwede kasi baka mabulabog ang Tondo..

riot din yung mismong parada! maraming mga 'floats', iba't ibang klase, may mga sobrang weird pa nga, e.. may mga baklang nagsasayaw, mga lalaking parang rumarampa sa isang pageant, mga batang nagchi-cheer, mga bading na nag-ala-Darna at Sanggre, mga taong tribong nagseseremonya, at marami pang iba..

may isang bagay nga lang na nakapaputok ng husto sa butsi ko.. my god, people, magsawa naman sana kayo sa Pinoy Ako! tugtog ng banda, sayaw ng grupo, pati ba naman yung looks ni Uma?

i shudder in disbelief..

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taena, ampangit ng puwesto ko ngayon dito sa cafe.. nabubunggo palagi ang upuan ko.. hindi ako makaupo sa gusto kong puwesto.. leche naman o..

mental note: hindi na ako uupo dito sa susunod..

probie ako? okay lang..

sila ba, probie rin? ewan ko.. dapat yata, pero hindi ko talaga alam..

kung inde man, nakakaamoy na kami.. nangangamoy ka na..

kunwari ka pa jan, e totoo naman na ganon ka.. hindi naman masama ang umamin, diba?

tapos sakin ka magagalit, e parang ako ang nag-pasimuno nun.. ako rin lang ba ang nagsasabi na ganon ka?

palibhasa ako lang ang magantihan mo..

pagbigyan na nga lang..

anyway, hindi na ako magco-comment sa issue na to.. besides, laging sinasabi sakin ng mga nakatatanda na wag nang pumatol sa mga mababababang nilalang.. e di wag..

ewan ko nalang kung magre-react ka pa.. masayang malaman kung ano ang next step mo..

Monday, January 09, 2006

i do not deserve to be compared to them.. nakaka-degrade yun, sobra.. kahit joke lang yun [joke na nagpasakit ng husto sa tiyan nila], kapag paulit-ulit naman, nakaka-bwisit din..

shet, aayusin ko na muna sarili ko.. bakit nila ako kinumpara sa kanila? taena naman o..

nandun pa naman siya.. my god, parang hindi siya first-hand witness kung paano ako maasar.. parehong-pareho ang situwasyon, siya pa ang pasimuno.. tsk tsk..

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alam ninyo kung ano ang mas nakaka-degrade? yung sasabihan kang sobrang madali kang mapikon..

normal lang siguro yan sa inyo, pero para sa akin, sobrang nakakaasar ang masabihan niyan, lalo na kung sa lahat nalang ng pang-aasar nila sayo'y nakikingiti, nakikitawa, at nakikihalakhak ka, hindi ka nagpapakita ng pagkaasar, at kung paminsan naman ay ginagatungan mo pa nga yung pangaasar nila.. nung nasa grade school ako, oo, aminado akong pikon at napaka-sensitive akong bata.. pero ngayon? hindi na, kaya napakalaking insulto nun para sakin..

okay lang naman sana kung paminsan yun, at walang halong malisya, e.. pero paano kung mismong pagkatao mo na ang ginagago? hinayaan mo lang sa simula, joke joke lang naman kasi, e.. pero nung tumagal-tagal na't nakaka-degrade na, pabiro mong ipinaramdam na baka sumosobra na sila.. wala silang kiyeme, tuloy lang sa pang-aasar..

hanggang dumating sa punto na ma-asar ka na.. walang expression ang mukha mo, masabihan ka agad ng pikon.. pakshet.. to make things worse, ikumpara ka ba naman sa isang taong kilala sa pagiging pikunin: yung tipo na gumawa ka lang ng joke, kahit hindi tungkol sa kanya, ay pagsasabihan ka agad..

tangina naman, walang ganyanan!

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wala akong pakialam kung mabasa ninyo ito.. e ano naman ang paki ko kung mabasa niyo?

siguro ang ibig lang sabihin ninto, kailangan na ninyong magbago.. re-evaluate yourself.. and maybe your could be a little more sensitive of other people's feelings..

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sinabi niya sa akin, napakaingay ko daw..

seconds after that, dakdakan sila.. pupusta ako na narinig yun sa dulo ng lobby..

re-evaluate yourself..

Saturday, January 07, 2006

malapit na daw kaming lumipat sa states.. ewan ko lang kung ang malapit na sinasabi ni mama ay malapit as in before the year ends, o malapit as in matatapos ka muna ng college.. sana naman within the year nalang, para makapagtapos ako ng pag-aaral sa isteyts..

kung ako ang papipiliin, mas gugustuhin kong mag-aral sa MIT o sa CalTech.. kaso nga lang, napaka-hirap naman yata ng admission standards nila dun.. i mean, sabi ng mga websites, sobrang hirap daw makapasok sa CalTech, at lalo na sa MIT..

problema ko pa pala ang gastusin.. sabi naman dito, nasa $41k ang gastos every year, at sa MIT, nasa $44k naman daw.. ambigat naman sa bulsa..

kaya ba namin yan? juskupo, kahit yata mag-Financial Aid ako, hindi namin kakayanin yan..

Friday, January 06, 2006

pnaramdaman niyo na ba na may maling-mali kayong ginawa, na pinagsisihan niyo ng lubusan, na kahit anong gawin mong pag-tama nito'y hindi mo na ito mababago, tapos sa huli, may napakagandang pangyayari na idinulot nito?

ako meron.. naranasan ko lang ito ngayon, at ngayon ko lang na-realize kung gaano pala ako kasuwerte at nangyari ito sa akin..

kasi, dapat classmates kami ng roommate ko ngayon sa isang subject.. pero nung enrollment, may nagsasabi sa loob ko na palitan ko yung section ko for an earlier timeslot.. di ko alam kung bakit, pero ginawa ko yun.. basta malakas yung pakiramdam ko nun na dapat ko ngang palitan.. nung na-realize ko na yung mga long-term effects ng ginawa ko, nagsisi ako ng lubusan kasi wala akong kakilala dun.. ayaw na ayaw ko pa naman ng ganun, kasi, tendency is, nakakatamad mag-aral sa subject na yun, plus nakakatamad ding pumasok dun..

turns out, our prof is a very efficient teacher.. naging prof ko na siya before, so may alam ko na kung ano ang mga gusto niya sa isang estudyante..

added bonus pa sa akin: classmate ko nanaman si crush [my first crush sa mapúa]! naging classmate ko na rin siya dati.. tapos nun, minsan ko nalang siya nakikita.. ngayon, sobrang ganda na ni crush! as in bago na hairstyle niya, bagay na bagay sa kanya! hindi ko pa nga siya na-mukhaan ngayon, e.. kamukha na niya tuloy si Cindy Kurleto..

things do happen to you when you least expect it.. thank you God!

*infatuated*

Thursday, January 05, 2006

i sooo love t.A.T.u. talaga.. their new album is a must-have.. good thing i downloaded it off the net months ago..

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Bob Ong's new book, Stainless Longganisa, is already out! tomorrow i'm gonna get one for myself.. and the good thing is, malaman daw talaga ang book na ito.. woohoo!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

i didn't buy anything for myself last christmas, so yesterday, i got the new Britney DVD and Remix CD..

now i can't keep myself from playing it! help! hehe..

Monday, January 02, 2006

there's really not much to do since the christmas break started.. when i'm not sleeping or surfing the net, you'd find me watching DVDs.. my mom bought a lot of those many-in-one DVDs in Quiapo or Divisoria..

in the past few days, i've watched the following DVDs:

The Notebook, School Ties, Legally Blonde 2, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events, Van Helsing, If Only, D' Anoders, The Spongebob Squarepants Movie, Batman Begins, Mr. & Mrs. Smith, War of the Worlds, Fantastic 4, X-Men 2, Smallville [Pilot], The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe, The Exorcism of Emily Rose, Britney Spears's Greatest Hits: My Prerogative, Britney Spears: In The Zone, Pinoy Big Brother, My Little Bride, 100 Days with Mr. Arrogant, Bug Me Not, Sex is Zero, Sex is Zero 2, Love So Divine, Love: Impossible

whew! it is only now that i've realized i've watched a LOT of movies! too much, even..

aside from those, my siblings held marathons of Mr. Bean and Ragnarok, both of which are animated.. of course, i joined the 'fun', mainly due to boredom..

the only thing i've done productive over the break is the new layout.. that's it! geez..

now that i've thought about it, it's a very, very good thing i'm leaving for Manila this morning.. i've been a sloth all break!

Sunday, January 01, 2006

¡feliz año nuevo, mi amigos! how did you welcome 2006? bangin', boozin', or snoozin'?

pics will do for now.. these pics were taken just after 2006 graced us..


[mico, malcolm, my mom, mariel, and me..]


mico, mariel, my dad, malcolm, and me..

P.S.: to all those photoshop experts there, don't scrutinize me.. believe me or not, this is just my first attempt at this, so go easy on me..Ü

and you thought you were the only one watching..